All posts by: Sjef

MoonBlog 45.6 & 12.1 (exalted)

So this is maybe a kind of a ‘heads up’. As a Reflector being called the canary in the coal mine, this may be relevant. But then again, it might be just me, personally…

So about a year ago, some of the foods I eat started to make me sick, as in stomach hurt and nausea, wanting to vomit, but mostly, diarrhea. I would feel a nut in my stomach that needed to pass through me, and out, and only then would the nausea stop too, and I no longer felt sick.

Now my PHS is Color 2 Tone 1, Open Taste as Determination, Cognition Smell. So I eat a lot of the same foods, a fixed menu that rotates around, and most times similar combinations of foods, of flavours and tastes. And then very rarely but still usually one meal would be replaced by another.

But about a year ago I also started experimenting with making more my own foods, so buying the individual spices and combine them to get the same meals, instead of these prepackaged flavours from the shop. So especially with the curry noodles I made, not good. That whole meal has now left the Menu. But no replacement…

Or, not yet, usually something new comes along and I only notice in hindsight it had replaced another meal, now, one fell away, nothing new came along. Puzzling.

But not just the curry spices themselves are off now, the egg noodles are too, the veggies I used with it, can’t eat it anymore either. So all separate parts of the one meal I can not combine even in other dishes… Something to notice.
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The three levels of self-awareness

or: “it’s turtles all the way down

23 minute read by Mark Manson

Self-awareness is like great sex: everyone thinks they have a ton of it, but in reality no one knows what the fuck they’re doing.

The fact is that the majority of our thoughts and actions are on autopilot. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing either. Our habits, routines, impulses, and reactions carry us through our lives so we don’t have to stop and think about it every time we wipe our ass or start a car.

The problem is when we’re on autopilot for so long that we forget we’re on autopilot. Because when we’re not even aware of our own habits, routines, impulses, and reactions, then we no longer control them; they control us. Whereas a person with self-awareness is able to exercise a little meta-cognition and say, “Hmm… every time my sister calls me and asks for money, I end up drinking a lot of vodka. That might not be a coincidence,” a person without self-awareness just hits the bottle and doesn’t look back.

Below are three levels of self-awareness along with a caveat. Why three levels? Who the fuck knows? Just go with it.

LEVEL 1 – WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING?

There’s a lot of pain and suckage in life. Over the last 30 days, how many times have you:
– Struggled with a relationship with someone close to you?
– Felt lonely, isolated or unheard?
– Felt unproductive or lost on what you should do?
– Been underslept, under-fed, low energy, or unhealthy?
– Stressed about work or finances?
– Uncertain about your future?
– Been physically hurt, ill, or debilitated?

Chances are if you add all of those up, you’re going to be pretty close to 30 out of the last 30 days. That’s a lot of suckage!

We avoid pain through distraction. We transport our minds to some other time or place or world, where it can be safe and insulated from the pain of day-to-day life. We stare at our phones, we obsess about the past or our potential futures, make plans we’ll never keep, or simply try to forget. We eat, drink, and fuck ourselves into numbness to dull the reality of our problems. We use books, movies, games, and music to carry us to another world where no pain exists, and everything always feels easy and good and right.

Now, there’s nothing wrong with distraction. We all need some sort of diversion to keep us sane and happy.

The key is that we need to be aware of our distractions.

Put another way, we need to make sure that we’re choosing our distractions and our distractions aren’t choosing us. We’re the ones opting into the distraction, rather than simply being unable to opt out of distraction. We need to know when we’re checking out. Our distraction needs to be planned and moderated in bite-sized chunks. We can’t binge on distraction.

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The Planets

The Planets – Ra Uru Hu – Introduction

The planets play a key role in the design of who we are. In fact, everything is based on the movements and impact of the planetary spheres.

The key to understanding the impact of something as distant as a planet on our lives is a tiny, subatomic particle known as the neutrino. Neutrinos are extremely fine matter produced by the nuclear reactions within stars. All the stars, including our own sun, are producing neutrinos all the time. The stars out in space are constantly beaming these neutrinos at us, and being made of such fine substance, the neutrinos can pass through our bodies, as well as the body of the earth. Imagine then, how the movements of the planets around our sun refract the neutrino information as it passes into us.

Planets vary greatly in density and makeup. Some consist of solid rock, whilst others consist purely of layers of gases. Every planet also has its own mythology as perceived by man. Our mythologies are, and always have been, our method of attuning to our greater body.

The planets are our local programming agents. This is why we have always seen them as the gods in our mythologies down the ages. Every planet lends its flavor to our nature.

Sun – Our Light – Yang

Here on earth, scientists have estimated that 70% of the neutrinos that pass through the earth come from our sun. The remainder comes from either Jupiter or the stars in deep space. Thus, 70% of all the neutrino information that we receive is seen in the position of our sun and earth. The sun represents the primary yang force of our nature. It is the archetype of the Father, just as the earth is the Mother. The Sun and Earth are the prime yin/yang within us all. The sun creates the electromagnetic field of the solar cell in which we live. The design sun represents the biogenetic themes inherited from our father. If you look at your own design sun, you will see the theme that you have inherited from your father. The personality sun is the window through which the very light of who we are shines out on the world.
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Increase Your Self Awareness

“How to See Yourself Clearly: Skip the Introspection Mode

Too much self examination can kill you

“A man wrapped up in himself makes a very small parcel.” ― John Ruskin

Late one night a blind old man was about to go home after visiting a friend. “Please,” he said to his friend, “may I take your lantern with me?”
“Why carry a lantern?” — asked his friend. “You won’t see any better with it.”
“No, perhaps not.” — said the blind one. “But others will see me better, and not bump into me.”
So his friend gave the blind man a bamboo lantern — it had a big candle inside. Off went the blind man and, before he had gone too far, a traveler bumped into him.
The blind man was furious. “Why don’t you look out?” — he stormed. “Haven’t you seen the lantern?”
“Lantern? Well, the candle is OUT!”— replied the traveler.
Introspection is like a lantern — it might provide light, but it doesn’t guarantee seeing.
The blind man didn’t need any light. However, once he depended on it, he became careless and stopped being aware. The old man literally bumped into a stranger.

Being obsessed with self-improvement can have the same effect. The introspection mode — continually examining your thoughts and feelings — can get you stuck. Rather than becoming more self-aware, you lose touch with yourself (and others).
You might be thinking: “Gustavo, you always write about the importance of self-awareness. I don’t get it.” That’s precisely the point of this post, introspection is something different — rehashing thoughts doesn’t generate insights.
To see your true-self clearly you don’t need light, but to increase self-awareness. That’s the path for personal growth.
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