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MoonBlog 39.4

The last part on the Reflector is nonsensical homogenization, and fantasy wishful thinking writing based on a theoretic understanding of Reflectors.

“Having clear boundaries and conscious awareness of what’s really going on during the game will help him not be overwhelmed by others or feel disappointed in the way the game is going but rather feel a sense of surprise and wonder at the excitement and flow of it all.”

Those pre-requisites of ‘having clear boundaries and conscious awareness’ are unattainable for any/all Reflectors and can not be used as a tool to counter such influences, this is just pretending to have any such control over the influence of the experience, first, and for all Reflectors, second. 7 centered Make-ability syndrome all over again.

Also as if being overwhelmed is something to avoid, first, and or bad, second, but most of all as if one actually can avoid any of the experience in such a way. But then also, as if ‘feeling a sense of’ [anything] is the goal! And then particularly or specifically “surprise and wonder at the excitement and flow of it all” as if Reflectors are toddlers or something, what the actual…?

Reflectors/Evaluators (still waiting for any proof that Ra himself ever called Reflectors Evaluators) do sample, do experience, but this way of writings suggests one only is one if one feels this sense of surprise and even wonder, first, but for the flow of it all? There is no room for things not flowing (say an accident happens with a player breaking a leg infield and needs medical attention, or a fight among players from opposing teams, or opposing fans), no room for unexcitement, which happens much MUCH more often than not and is just as valid an experience, especially when IT IS the actual experience of this, or that Reflector.

But also, as if 3 Reflectors, or 300 would experience all the same in the same situation, first, and only if they have clear boundaries and conscious awareness (can we measure this, is that in kilograms, or other units?) second.

Ah man… this is truly fantasy blabla-land.
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MoonBlog 12.3

Question: “How do reflectors approach each other if we are supposed to be initiated?”
One answer: “Where do such distortions come from? What does it mean to be initiated?”

Why call it a distortion when you’re not sure yet what it is?
Doubt versus inquiry.

Anyways. This is a nice example of being initiated but needing to process, and I wrote about it 6 years ago here:
http://www.mcha.nl/2012/10/29/initiate-me/

But I’ll add: to me, it is the perception of kick-starting my processing. Just like both your question/answer has. I felt, perceived, noticed I was initiated to answer this one, so I started processing it to answer, and in the mean time saw this question a few times during, but still nothing came to me to answer, while still perceiving, noticing to be initiated by it.

So someone comes along and does something, it could be towards you (a hug, a shout, a question, a smile) and you notice a shift by it, through it. It could also be a TV-ad, a picture you see online.

Nothing magical, nothing really special or something, just this perception, that yes, this is for me -to process- to maybe/perhaps engage with. When or how, is something else, but to notice this, first, is important. To perceive to be, initiated. No distortion here.

And sometimes, someone comes, asks, tells, does whatever, and I clearly notice -not- to be initiated. That it is not for me to process, which is a lot of the time. Much more than when I actually am (or perceive to be) initiated. No distortion here either.

So also, it is clear it is not the other persons doing, that they purposefully initiate me, with their agenda. Sure they could, and many do. But it is about me feeling that this, yes, has initiated me to process.

And then I do.

And then I wait, until the processing has finished and I know, yes, or no. Now I can do this, or interact with this someone on their question/journey, whatever it was they asked of me. Or no, I can not.

So when something is for me and me alone, no one else needs to initiate me. Like eating, or playing guitar.

When someone else is involved I need to be initiated, going out to dinner, or play in a band. This could be done by another person, but not necessarily. You can find out for yourself how it works for yourself, each Reflector for themselves.

There is talk that between people of the same Type, there is no Strategy; so Manifestors don’t need to inform each others, Generators not wait to respond, but I’m not sure if that is true. And I have seen examples of this not always working, so…

To answer the initial question: “How do reflectors approach each other if we are supposed to be initiated?” is, you experiment. Try it out by initiating yourself. Or, notice if you are already initiated by something to contact this Reflector. And if you notice, no, this feels off, I do not perceive to be initiated, even though my mind keeps annoying me with the subject, then see that, notice that, and move on. Sometimes we already are long time initiated and processing/operating accordingly without us being consciously aware, and sometimes we are not initiated but our minds heckle and harass us about it as if we should be.

What I learned through my journey in Human Design, is that before HD I thought life was really rough, and tough, and clear and black and white, that the way people interacted was always clear-cut and ‘manifested’ (for lack of a better word). This is this, and that is that. And I came to find it is incredibly subtle really, and nuanced, very delicate at times. And I was completely blind and unaware that these fine and even minute principles did run me, triggered me, initiated me already, loooong before I or my mind noticed any of it. HD helped me see these finer details of when, why and how I am triggered by external things, that kick-start my processing.

And that having this incredibly rough perception made me incredibly blind. To me being me, myself.
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MoonBlog 10.4

Weirdos in the mail:

and this took 20 minutes…

Weirdo: how would you describe gate 26?

Me: describing I wouldn’t so much,a s know it, what it is capable of
but yeah BIG EGO is one

Weirdo: whhy is it called egoist
what are people projecting on me if i have 26.5

Me: you do have it !

Weirdo: hahaha
unconciouss

Me: which is all they see

Weirdo: what do you mean?

Me: you think only about your Personality traits, while everyone only sees your Design traits
lots of mindy questions there bud

Weirdo: yeah why not mindy questions?
its interestimg

Me: book a session?

Weirdo: nah 😀
but people do see you personality and design right

Me: then my big ego says: bye 🙂
no
only you see P
only they see D

Weirdo: oh ok
but even my 22.2 conciouss sideshould be projected on , are you sure what you are talking about ?

Me: dude, go fuck yourself
are you drunk?

Weirdo: well whats your problem ? im just asking ? haha, im curious
not my fault if you have a bad day

Me: no you’re questioning me, while asking me, while not paying me, wasting my time
ah good, yeah all my fault
the end, you’re behaving like an asshole
(nice example of 26 response for you) *unfriend+block messaging*
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MoonBlog 30.5

Since we were born, as we take the world in, we seek to position ourselves in that world. So our minds run a little software program with our likes and dislikes, which helps us navigate the world. To recognize things or to deal with the unknown.

And when it meets something unknown, it just makes a mess, or perhaps just helps you to keep your cool, lucky shot at best. So we helped program it, our ego/mind has, what happens when we see a 1943 Alco, S2 locomotive come by and we cheer. Or when someone gifts us, or we ourselves find that limited edition of this or that.

But also when something frightens us and we want to run and hide. Or what ever our response is, it is the programmed software doing its thing, and we run the same paths, the same behavior over and over and over again. The same is true if you are offended by something, you -choose- to be offended, or… not be offended. Just the programmed software doing its thing.

So yeah, you can change that software behaviour, its responses how, what and when, it’s what most therapy and even meditation is all about, but also tapping and even prayer.

But we get stuck because no one tells it is software that can be changed. Because we so self identify with ‘our’ own little program, we think -we- need to change. First that we are wrong and then we need changing, this is incredibly difficult for the identified not-self to overcome.

When in fact that software is not you at all, it is just in you and you helped shape it, but it is not you. To be able to step back and see that…

But how about simply taking the software out…? To stop running that program all together? And find out what actually makes you happy, and drop the identification with that which makes you happy, and no longer carry it as luggage with you everywhere? That wherever you are, and you do see another 1943 Alco, S2 locomotive come by it is indeed just another unattached event, but so is being afraid of something just another event, that needs no action from your software…

Maybe/perhaps?
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MoonBlog 61.4

the mind is finally convinced
yet the body does not move
so nothing changes

the mind wonders and sees
the body rests, or eats, breathes

trying to trick the body into movement
the body is not bored
the body is not bothered

not with politics
or hierarchies
until it is correct

to move
to budge
to strike
to kill
to pay
to love
to fuck
to marry
to sink or swim
to go to class
to travel
to do

until then/when
nothing changes
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a not so Human Design soap

so (carefull, mansplaining here!) the title of the book ‘How to fuck a woman’s brains out’ to me means, to be so devoted to loving your partner -mind, body and soul- that she has no more desires left. That you have cared and catered for her so much, that she says: “thank you, I’m fine.”

Which is what I indeed try to do. And it is a big task, because I’m just a man, and to go that far is not easy. But the journey there is freaking awesome, and incredibly entertaining. No misogyny anywhere.

And one could go all bananas with my open centers and say: “see there, is not-self of him, in this center, that gate, ooh look at the color here.” Great.
Let’s begin with the close read and break-down of the comments on this feuilleton, after these screencaps:

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MoonBlog 9.3

Something interesting happened,

a few years ago, I noticed my own behaviour on FaceBook was not on par with me being me. I was too pushy, and sometimes even wrong.

So on December 17 2014 I left FB and started my own website, and a blog, where I could still post and share what I see. Some things I like, but some just what I notice.
And to have an outlet for my own writings too, without anyone commenting on them. And since then it has filled with roughly 2400 posts, links, pictures, funnies, videos and whatnot.

Some of my writings are horrible, and some are divine. Some of my writings clearly show my issues, some look like I have no issues what so ever.
However, they are a nice archive of what I see, of what I notice, of what I deem interesting, or funny, or hilarious enough to blog about, to post, to share, to copy paste.

After a year I came back to FB, and since have changed my tone, not because I seek to make money with it, but simply cause some people actually grow, or mutate, change.

And some people like some of the more divine writings and share them in other places, like Facebook. Like this post:
http://www.mcha.nl/2014/03/14/the-human-design-system/ which was recently shared about 8 times on FB, which seemed to make some people upset…

Yesterday Birgitte West takes this post on my blog: http://www.mcha.nl/2016/10/23/relationship-therapy/ as if I am offering this as ‘HDS Relationship counseling’.

Which is hilarious, but false.

It is posted on my own personal blog and this happens to be a book I enjoyed. I did not write it, but for me, and my relationship with both myself and any intimate partner since, it was wonderful to be able to see an angle I had not see before.
It is a book where intimate honesty is of the highest standard. Of course the writers (a man and a woman!) made a shocking title, which serves a purpose, which I find funny.

But now she is claiming to finally ‘pulling the trigger on me’ as if having this or that sexual preference, or even a mild interest, has anything to do with what kind of sessions one provides. Or that I promote BDSM in any of my services. The title of the blogpost itself ‘Relationship Therapy’ is my own, indeed, which is tongue in cheek, but yeah, there is no defense against stupidity… She writes:

“stay away from this one — sick of seeing this character being hailed as worth following as a so called HDS authority
#notkeepingquiet #malechauvinistcrap #nowyouknow #thisisnothds #sjefiscrap”

And all this behind my back, since Birgitte blocks me for ages on FB, although her other account Tre Cinque keeps a close watch, and she scans my blog for dirt. To each their own hobby.

But also, what a huge disappointment for any future partners, if they themselves are into heavy BDSM, cause disclaimer: I’m not.

Enjoy 🙂
Ow and read part 2 here: A not so Human Design soap
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MoonBlog 45.6 & 12.1 (exalted)

So this is maybe a kind of a ‘heads up’. As a Reflector being called the canary in the coal mine, this may be relevant. But then again, it might be just me, personally…

So about a year ago, some of the foods I eat started to make me sick, as in stomach hurt and nausea, wanting to vomit, but mostly, diarrhea. I would feel a nut in my stomach that needed to pass through me, and out, and only then would the nausea stop too, and I no longer felt sick.

Now my PHS is Color 2 Tone 1, Open Taste as Determination, Cognition Smell. So I eat a lot of the same foods, a fixed menu that rotates around, and most times similar combinations of foods, of flavours and tastes. And then very rarely but still usually one meal would be replaced by another.

But about a year ago I also started experimenting with making more my own foods, so buying the individual spices and combine them to get the same meals, instead of these prepackaged flavours from the shop. So especially with the curry noodles I made, not good. That whole meal has now left the Menu. But no replacement…

Or, not yet, usually something new comes along and I only notice in hindsight it had replaced another meal, now, one fell away, nothing new came along. Puzzling.

But not just the curry spices themselves are off now, the egg noodles are too, the veggies I used with it, can’t eat it anymore either. So all separate parts of the one meal I can not combine even in other dishes… Something to notice.
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MoonBlog 63.4

On Lunar Cycle Processing for Reflectors:

I found, that if I entered into something incorrectly (smoking cigarettes, picking up someone in bar me (and/or her) utterly wasted), I do not need a month (processing) to get out of it.
Although, I may have been processing it unconsciously, but so far that is what I think now.

If I entered into something correctly but is something bad, then I do need a month processing.
Also, many ‘bad’ things were correct for me, to experience. Not because of their outcome or what I learned because of them, not any so called logical reason or meaning, but simply correct to experience as an experience, full stop.

I can only start processing something by myself if it is only for me, or about me. To buy a new jacket, or to play guitar, or not.

For all things where other people are invloved I need external initiating to process it to begin with. Otherwise if I start processing this or that job, or relationship without external initiation, I will never finish processing cause then it is all mind.

I can not initiate myself, cause that is mind.

And then if properly initiated, after processing a month and it is not clear, or not a hell yes, then I process another month, and if need be another other month, and so on.
Until it is ‘clear’ until I noticed my body moved here, or there, engaged, or disengaged.

So an important question to me in or before processing is: how did I get (t)here? Did I get into it by my own mind, or by my correctness in the first place? Before I tackle: has it run its course (yet)?

an older quote by Leela Swann-Herbert:
Reflectors with their sampling aura can close or open themselves to the other…they cannot keep out the transits. Reflectors only need to be initiated to decisions (and interactions) that involve the other – activities, projects, places, relationships…No type needs to be asked, invited or initiated to decisions that only involve themselves – all the types except Manifestors need to have life bring them activities, projects, places, relationships that involve others…from outside of their aura – Generators/asked; Projectors/invited; Reflectors/initiated…

Anything dealing with anyone else but me, we Reflectors all need to be initiated. So all those situations you can now possibly think of or remember, are those exact situations where this is true. All of them, all the time.

If not initiated then it is (a) mind(fuck).

For me as a 4/6 profile there is an added nuance (not a complication though) that the initiations (or ‘solutions’) come from my network of friends, so for houses, partners, jobs.

Buying motorbikes or Guitars or iPads seem a little different, especially when bought online, for me.

But my recent moped buy was offered to me by a long time friend, from a work colleague of his.
I was processing owning one for quite a few years already (and nothing happened!), but not until my partner mentioned getting one each (ping initiation happening) I shared with my friend I was looking for one, and he told me a few days later he knew one.

An invitation could perfectly well be an initiation. To me it is the perception of a trigger indeed, of my Lunar Processing starting.

Usually someone asks me something for them, about them, like “wanna do this for me, or with me?” kind of questions.

To me, it is about -the perception- of being invited or initiated. If you perceive to be, then you probably are…

…else mind…

I’m an HD Guide & Teacher, but I don’t or rarely advertise any services, until someone asks -and- it is correct for me (too). Then I can shift into gear of what I have to offer, to them. And if that is a course for instance someone initiated me into, then I can advertise it somewhere else too (as have seen in the past)

But I can not just say: you know what, I’m gonna organize one this May.

In the mean time I simply continue to study, or even work on presentations, for myself, by myself. Some may never be ‘called for’, or not in this life time. I still had fun creating them being with them in my own processing, in my own honing of my information presentation.

In some situations (publishing a book), if the conversation goes there, and you both perceive to be ‘triggered’ then hey maybe something happens with it. Or someone overhears and steals it, or beats you to it publishing it. Who knows…? 😉

Or maybe the conversation was great, wonderful ideas exchanged, but you notice it has no life, no juice. No one is triggered, nothing ‘happens’.

And not also buy that quad-bike cause everyone has one and you do want to go quadding. Check, first.

Taken from an online discussion in the Human Design Reflector group on Facebook

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MoonBlog 42.1

“(He told me) Variable has to be down to the second to be accurate and pretty much no one knows that, so variable isn’t really reliable or accurate.”

Well let’s do the math, shall we? (Variables are derived from the Color and Tone of the Design and Personality of both Sun/Earth and the Nodes)

Sun in
Gate/Line 41.1 02:18 (Januari 22nd 2018)
Gate/Line 41.2 00.25 (Januari 23rd 2018)

Distance/duration: 22 hours, 7 minutes and 0 seconds

1 Line: 22×60 + 7 = 1327 minutes or 79,620 seconds
Each Line has 6 Colors: 1327/6 = 221.17 minutes per Color or 13270 seconds
Each Color has 6 Tones: 221.17/6 = 36.86 minutes per Tone or 2211.67 seconds

Each Tone has 5 Bases: 36.86/5 = 7.37 minutes per Base or 442.33 seconds

Left or Right Variable is 3 Tones long = 110.58 minutes per Leftness/Rightness

Sun/Earth take 1 year to Transit the whole wheel of 64 Gates
Nodes take 18.6 years to Transit the whole wheel of 64 Gates
So per Tone 36.81*18.6 = 685.62 minutes per Tone

Left or Right Variable is 3 Tones long = 2056.85 minutes per Leftness/Rightness

So Birth time needs to be 36 minutes accurate or 2211.67 seconds, not ‘to the second’.
And besides there is always reverse engineering and Ayervedic Birth Time rectification if need be.

For a giggle, here is the Moon in
Gate 25 03:08 (Januari 22nd 2018) GMT
Gate 17 13.45 (Januari 22nd 2018) GMT

Distance/duration: 10 hours, 37 minutes or 637 minutes or 38,220 seconds

1 Gate has 6 Lines: 637/6 = 106.17 minutes per Line or 6370 seconds
Each Line has 6 Colors: 106.17/6 = 17.69 minutes per Color or 1061.67 seconds
Each Color has 6 Tones: 17.69/6 = 2.95 minutes per Tone or 176.94 seconds

Each Tone has 5 Bases: 2.95/5 = 0.59 minutes per Base or 35.39 seconds

MoonBlog 42.1

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MoonBlog 45.2

So, another Human Design Teacher described FaceBook as a whole, and HD groups in particular as the not-self world to me the other day. This got me to contemplate my role (t)here, again.

Because I realize these groups are devoid of true HD information, of what it is, and means, to live your design, properly. And yes even if your daily life looks different than mine, or yours, and yours too, the construct of it does not change, Strategy and Authority is not different in the framework of it. How openness works is not different. So I do my best to reply whenever I see or think something is off, when it is either diluting HD or if it is the complete opposite of what HD is, and yes, to me, this includes any kind of ritual, or using anything external for temporary relief, and any and all homogenization.

The comments I get in private and some of the likes from people who are experimenting for a while with HD is helpful. The comments from those that (usually) have not, is incredible. Hurtful even as they gang up, and pound and pound about the tone, about the ‘spirit’ of it, about who I supposedly am as a person, how offended they themselves are by my words about the content they have posted, about -what- they have said. Calling names, shouting and cursing in private messages, giving all kinds of moral pressures of their own frustration and anger, of which I am indeed the trigger but not the cause.

It is not my fault you never learned to communicate, never had any one say: “No, what you just said is untrue in my world and here is why”. And then is unable to deal with that and just gets into a fit and rage. And get all personal about you instead. And then 3 or 5 or 7 others join in with the same bullshit, convinced as they are, feeling empowered by the same stupidity, by the same beliefs.

And not once considering how this holding on to these old beliefs is the reason for their own suffering, for their own anger, for their failed outlook on life. This new age belief of make-ability of needing to be love, of needing to meet love only, for life to succeed, to feel better. And here are tools to feel better. not -be- better, no, -feel- it, perceive it, live in the illusion of feeling better. When year after year even being in groups as these, the suffering continues, and oozes out in the reactions, to people like me. To and about Human Design.
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MoonBlog 9.6 & 5.1

For many Moons now, I was looking to upgrade my guitar, having had 16 guitars (and one Bass guitar) in my life so far I was looking for something different.

I knew I wanted a certain shape that felt good to my own body holding it, but should also be of high quality and perhaps a looker too.

And this time, no matter the price… kinda…

Easily said, not so easy to find, and I have had my fair share of shitty guitars, mostly because of budget issues, and also because it takes a while for me to find out if I do like something, or if it simply does not work out. So after a few moons processing I end up buying a guitar, and then a few moons later it needs to go again.

Reading my MoonBlogs one can see I have an affection for PRS (Paul Reed Smith) guitars, most say because he makes guitars that sit somewhere in between Fender (Stratocaster) and Gibson (Les Paul), and while that may be true, what speaks to me, is his openness to share about his products, his own nerdiness in going all in in finding that tone through all the little components that make up a musical instrument, his factory, and so on.

Sure some of it is marketing, some of it is ego showiness, a little american sauce over it, but it’s good, I like it. I’ve learned a lot more about guitars and guitar making through investigating about their company and products, something that is much much harder to find out about with most other guitar making companies.

So I had a vague kind of wishlist of components, or elements that my next guitar should contain, where quality was probably the most important.
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MoonBlog 20.5

Another remarkable thing looking at beginners now, and my own process when I started with Human Design, is identifications.

And I mean false identifications, we (you/me) identify with things that are not true, and often we do not identify with things that are actually true.

But that is only a part of the story, far more profound, is the fact that it is the mind judging it, discerning it, either making stuff up that is false or ignoring that which is so incredibly true. It is the mind who either adheres to something or dismisses it, and we believe it, since we so identify (again) with whatever the mind comes up with. It could be total and complete mental diarrhea, but we cling to it as if our lives depend on it. And we will murder/death/kill for it…

…for a concept, for a thought, for an attachment.

As long as the mind tells us something, we tend to accept it, never investigating it for just another thought which may or may not, be true. And then we wear it, boastingly, proud owners of something that might be completely fabricated and ‘wrong’.

And underneath something else happens too, we consider ourselves the good guys, always and foremost, and most other people as the bad guys. And thus we can never be told or proven wrong, it is inconceivable, since we are the only true good guys, the saviours, the ones opposing the system, the man, even if we do have a little money, or some form of power in our jobs, it is us versus them. And them is, when it comes down to it, almost –everybody- else.

Never me. Especially not me.
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MoonBlog 53.1

About https://www.sympatika.com/ “Your Perfect Match With Human Design

Are you seeking to date a person or a map?

This has been tried and tried, and each time the mind falls for it, and fills up with the eager seeking and then always bleed out…
Using Human Design for dating is the best example of our minds desire to control life and live in the illusion of make-ability/ manufacturability syndrome (maakbaarheids syndroom)

You see this also in the HD sex group, mindfucking charts

You meet someone, in whatever way and you apply S&A each, regardless of what the chart says, or does not say. Correctness going in and out of relationships is the key, not if the paper says ‘have some fun’ and then follow this as your authority and giving up your own.

If you ever had one…

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MoonBlog 31.2

In relationships one can be heard saying: “I have a problem with you about money”, which is an interesting story. Because basically we ourselves have a problem about money then, but the mind uses the other as a lightning rod to distract us from that. And so an argument, about money, or about the other, begins. Drama made up by the mind.

The problem is about money then, so we think, but besides money being ‘the root of all evil’ in some circles, money can’t talk back it does not respond to our worries and woes, so money is quickly dropped as being the focus of our problem and only the other is left to carry that accusation and weight.

But who is having said problem? We have, well actually, our mind has a problem. And then uses us, money and the other as reasons to dramatize.

See, the story is not about the other, it is not even about money and it certainly is not about us ourselves.
The story is about the story (!!) as the mind wants to dramatize and make up different beliefs to heckle us incessantly and distract us from things actually already being ok, so it can stay in control to run our lives.

“See, look the other, or money, there is your problem, see how right I am and good I am taking care of you?”

And we tend to think the story is about the other, money or even ourselves, when none of those are the issue. We waste countless hours considering this & that, but the only real issue we have, is the stories themselves that we hear and run with. The stories we are being distracted by in the illusion of even having a problem in the first place. And then we try to -resolve the topic- of that story, with more countless hours of energy, discussions, perhaps even going online looking for support for this issue, or pay someone to listen to us having all these issues, where slowly as we peel away the layers of our thinking about the other first, money second, ourselves third, we think (again) to have a handle on things, on our issues, while making elaborate schemes how to handle money, how to deal with the other with money, how we look at our own issues with money too. Patting ourselves on the back how far we think we’ve come.

When the made-up story itself is never looked at, the foundation, the reasons of even having the story to begin with.
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MoonBlog 37.2

A thing to perhaps notice is our deep running drive, to negotiate with life. To seek ways to alter what needs to be done, when for instance entering into our Human Design experiment. How we, us, our ego, our minds, wants to have a say in which way things work, and seeks to put terms on our own deconditioning process, which is hilarious to watch and see, as we come up with all sorts of excuses why we would like to change our experience of things.

And thus our ego/mind keeps hold of our process, of our lives, of what -is- going on in it. And while continuing to feel a victim of circumstance, of this, of that, of you, but also me, of the teacher, of our Strategy & Authority, of the new president elect. We seek short-cuts to justify the means to reach a certain goal, but get so caught up in seeking these short-cuts, as our minds have laid out an intricate plan to attain it, we probably will never reach that goal we attempt to reach in the first place.

As the Buddha supposedly has said:
“My teaching is a raft whereon men may reach the far shore
The sad fact is that so many mistake the raft for the shore”

We will not reach the far shore at all (we won’t even get on the boat!!), as we negotiate what kind of boat, how much the crossing will cost, how long it will take, what seating arrangement, and who to partner up with in the cabin (wait, what, there are actual cabins too, how much for those !?? Really that much, is there a discount if I do this, or can prove that I am that?) on and on and on…
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MoonBlog 18.5

What I find interesting to notice with (FB group)talk on Ra versus Zeno Dickson, Steve Rhodes, Karen Curry/Parker, Chetan Parkyn, Richard Rudd, Eleanor Haspel-Portner, Kim Gould and so on is this:

When Ra says something it needs to have come from the Voice, or it (the mind of the audience) finds it hard to accept. We want to either believe or we do not believe. And not believing is just another belief…
Ra is not allowed (right…) to have understood and worked with what he got from the voice, it needs to be verbatim (word for word accurate) or not.

But these ‘heretics’, those who moved on or away from Ra’s Jovian Human Design, who have not had the experience of the voice know better? They know better with their minds what is accurate and true about Human Design and they -are allowed- to freely interpret and share from their own and personal perspective?

Then all of a sudden the masses huddle up in line to sign up for this or that course, filling the coffers of those so called free entrepreneurs with funds of the ignorant and stupid who lament at the prices and structure of Jovian and IHDS. These people paid hundreds if not thousands for not just second hand information, but altered and changed, mangled and maimed by their grotesque ego teachers ! (while actually stating it to be ‘not like it at all’) Empowerment for only a few dollars less…
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MoonBlog 34.5

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we aren’t just friends
we -are- lovers
but, lovers of life
lovers of us

not, of each other

Like brothers and sisters
or, best friends forever
with others for intimacy
those others our fuckers

7-centerdness shed
and included 2 more
one hundred percent
is, what is correct

nothing else matters
that’s how we’ve met.
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MoonBlog 40.1

The denial of the defined Solar Plexus, and the open diversion of blame to the other.

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Something peculiar and noteworthy can be observed interacting with the defined SP. It is that many are not open at all to this so called truth confrontation, not open to hear other peoples perspectives on their very own behavior and actions, especially when it is not supporting how or what they perceive to feel, or think to feel about.

An interesting phenomenon takes place that is not malignant, but happens o so subtle but profound all the same, is that whenever you speak up about an action, even a mere observation about it, the other gets told to have a problem, is mean, does not play by the rules, and most of all, they perceive to be genuinely hurt by your remark.

Without ever looking at the content of it, the validity of it, or even to seek to understand the perception of the other, why someone has perceived it this way.

It does not matter even if you are factual, all that matters is, that you have told them, in some form or way as they were blissfully unaware, that you resent them for something, which they feel innocent about doing or being.

It seems a great terror comes over them that you are unappreciative and thus unaccepting of something they themselves see as an integral part of their emotional truth in this world.

Regardless if in that very moment they’re making a fool of themselves, are slaughtering kittens, voicing or writing complete nonsense, or just kicked you in the nuts.

The switch around comes back so quickly that as you voice or lament your concern for your testicles or kittens, you get confronted instead with voicing that. “How dare you challenge anything that I do, you are not a victim, nothing really happened to you, but you have a problem that is sure and also how incredibly rigid it is that you deny this part of me, that you exclude me partially, bad, bad, bad you.”

Then they really do take and make it personal, ad hominem
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MoonBlog 13.6

What is interesting to notice, is that many people coming to Human Design limit their fact finding to the internet and/or to exchange with people just like them who also only found more information about Human Design online.
Hardly ever is a session booked with either someone trained or even only very experienced, let alone read a proper book, or even study an actual course in Human Design, or 4.

But these are the people that populate, the loudest, the many different FaceBook groups.

From both my own personal experience and from watching other people, Living Your Design is near impossible without help, without some form of guidance, however simple some slogans may sound, or are perceived. And even if that guidance is from someone who did study and read or had their own sessions, it does not need to be someone properly trained, but it does need to be someone who properly experimented. And I don’t mean experimented on FaceBook, or written tons of articles even.

Now of course some voices immediately would say (shout) that the teaching then is too complicated, it is a closed pyramid scheme hierarchy all for money arguments.

But I say, there are at least 30 books in print and over 100 eBooks available, and most people read -none- of them.

Sure some books are from non-Jovian sources, and maybe those are correct for you, I personally doubt it, but you are the only one that can figure this out, if only you read at least one, or 5. And yes, many of the other publications are far too complicated, but there is a book for you out there, for your level, at least 3 or 5 perhaps even, easily.

It is kinda weird to me, that when we come to Human Design we see it’s potential and are quick to shout out about what a promising system it seems to be, and then what do most of us do with it?
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MoonBlog 19.6

Just like when learning to play a musical instrument, Living Your Design takes practice. Knowing about Human Design for 5 years or even 10, knowing about some descriptions of our type and even owning some books or courses, do just as little for us, as if buying that fancy guitar, knowing all about the wood and other materials that are used, but never ever touching it.

Not learning how to tune it, let alone actually learning to playing it. Whether it being strumming along with someone else, or playing a solo or even making compositions.

Human Design, and Living Your Design is not about how much we know, but about applying it, using it, studying how to use it. Getting examples from others that are using it, and seeing if that relates to anything we know from our own experience of life, or maybe in having seen this in others.

There is nothing wrong with more information per se, actually some information can really support us in seeing things just a little different, an angle we could not see for ourselves, from our own perspective. But then to apply this tool of Human Design, this tool of our Strategy, in our daily life, in our decision making, is truly where it all starts. Or… never gets to start.

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As our minds tell us we will never be able to grab that chord, or play as fast as someone else, we make mental decisions with mental arguments to convince ourselves of our inabilities. Which is exactly what we have always done before. It will keep us in the same experience of life that we have always known, only some events are different, some people may have changed, but the structure and outcome will never change.

We won’t play the guitar, we won’t Live Our Design, but continue to talk about how fancy the guitar is, or which other one may be better. How cool our supposed abilities are, how wise we may become in our openness, without every actually going there to experience that actual wisdom.

Afraid as our minds are, to break a string, or even drop the damn thing, to be made a fool of in front of others, we rather wallow in our misery, that is so familiar, and with which we have grown to identify our lives with. To struggle, and disagree with this and that and o yeah, that too.

If we are ready to become free from the clutches of our past, from all that we have known so far, then maybe, find someone who can actually assist you in the first steps of that experience, of Living Your Design.

Not just more information that seems so yummy but probably only acts as another burden, but actual support us with the Strategy to make decisions as ourself. Support with finding out how that works for us. What our actual truth really is. Practice takes effort, and some may go faster than others, so the key is to love yourself too, in that path of whatever your tempo is.

But make sure there is an actual tempo though.
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MoonBlog 44.4

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MoonBlog 44.4

Gate 44 of Alertness, coming to meet
Gate 44, Line 4 Honesty, The refusal to engage in hypocritical interaction.
Exalted: Indifference at its most logical and cutting. The indifference possible when guided by the instinctive memory.
Detriment: The Sun in detriment, that in extreme situations, in cases of self-sustainment, will expect assistance from forces it has totally rejected. Here the honesty is the genuine need. The sacrifice of indifference for survival.

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MoonBlog 16.6

No -direct- Inner Authority

“if such a thing is true, the mechanical absolutes of the Maya do not hold up”

Over the years there were a few discussions (on FaceBook) about Inner Authority and particularly for Mental Projectors and Reflectors not having any at all. For many new Reflectors that started looking into the studies and materials this came up as odd or incomprehensible. Knowing without being able to formulate well, that something inside does make decisions. In other groups or places some of the exchanges about this topic became quite heated and lots of stuff was thrown in the mix, including some very off-topic personal issues by several supposedly professional people into Human Design.

One part of the argument was, that Ra never said such a thing, and that those people, or Types simply had -no- Inner Authority, and several people believing this to be true supported this.

And then it turned into not having any ‘consistent’ inner authority, which is ludicrous considering -how- the process operates itself to -get to- the inner authority might be inconsistent, but the result does not need to be consistent or not consistent, it is a non argument, irrelevant.

Of course there is the mention of the eBook by Dharmen and Leela ‘Your Own Authority – A Beginner’s Guide to Human Design’ (which is available since April 2012 at Jovian Archive and IHDS) where the differentiation is made between Center based Inner Authority, and Process based Inner Authority. Considering the emotional wave of the Solar Plexus defined people, not being consistent either. The process itself is not consistent, not clearly determined, defined, can’t put a clock on it. But the result, for however much clarity is actually possible, is consistent. An answer will come, yes or no.

Another part of the argument was, that both Mental Projectors and Reflectors and also a few people observing them wondered, but what then, does make decisions? There has to be something that makes decisions for ones self, and why would this not be named Inner Authority? A more logic approach to this question I find.
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