MoonBlog 63.4

On Lunar Cycle Processing for Reflectors:

I found, that if I entered into something incorrectly (smoking cigarettes, picking up someone in bar me (and/or her) utterly wasted), I do not need a month (processing) to get out of it.
Although, I may have been processing it unconsciously, but so far that is what I think now.

If I entered into something correctly but is something bad, then I do need a month processing.
Also, many ‘bad’ things were correct for me, to experience. Not because of their outcome or what I learned because of them, not any so called logical reason or meaning, but simply correct to experience as an experience, full stop.

I can only start processing something by myself if it is only for me, or about me. To buy a new jacket, or to play guitar, or not.

For all things where other people are invloved I need external initiating to process it to begin with. Otherwise if I start processing this or that job, or relationship without external initiation, I will never finish processing cause then it is all mind.

I can not initiate myself, cause that is mind.

And then if properly initiated, after processing a month and it is not clear, or not a hell yes, then I process another month, and if need be another other month, and so on.
Until it is ‘clear’ until I noticed my body moved here, or there, engaged, or disengaged.

So an important question to me in or before processing is: how did I get (t)here? Did I get into it by my own mind, or by my correctness in the first place? Before I tackle: has it run its course (yet)?

an older quote by Leela Swann-Herbert:
Reflectors with their sampling aura can close or open themselves to the other…they cannot keep out the transits. Reflectors only need to be initiated to decisions (and interactions) that involve the other – activities, projects, places, relationships…No type needs to be asked, invited or initiated to decisions that only involve themselves – all the types except Manifestors need to have life bring them activities, projects, places, relationships that involve others…from outside of their aura – Generators/asked; Projectors/invited; Reflectors/initiated…

Anything dealing with anyone else but me, we Reflectors all need to be initiated. So all those situations you can now possibly think of or remember, are those exact situations where this is true. All of them, all the time.

If not initiated then it is (a) mind(fuck).

For me as a 4/6 profile there is an added nuance (not a complication though) that the initiations (or ‘solutions’) come from my network of friends, so for houses, partners, jobs.

Buying motorbikes or Guitars or iPads seem a little different, especially when bought online, for me.

But my recent moped buy was offered to me by a long time friend, from a work colleague of his.
I was processing owning one for quite a few years already (and nothing happened!), but not until my partner mentioned getting one each (ping initiation happening) I shared with my friend I was looking for one, and he told me a few days later he knew one.

An invitation could perfectly well be an initiation. To me it is the perception of a trigger indeed, of my Lunar Processing starting.

Usually someone asks me something for them, about them, like “wanna do this for me, or with me?” kind of questions.

To me, it is about -the perception- of being invited or initiated. If you perceive to be, then you probably are…

…else mind…

I’m an HD Guide & Teacher, but I don’t or rarely advertise any services, until someone asks -and- it is correct for me (too). Then I can shift into gear of what I have to offer, to them. And if that is a course for instance someone initiated me into, then I can advertise it somewhere else too (as have seen in the past)

But I can not just say: you know what, I’m gonna organize one this May.

In the mean time I simply continue to study, or even work on presentations, for myself, by myself. Some may never be ‘called for’, or not in this life time. I still had fun creating them being with them in my own processing, in my own honing of my information presentation.

In some situations (publishing a book), if the conversation goes there, and you both perceive to be ‘triggered’ then hey maybe something happens with it. Or someone overhears and steals it, or beats you to it publishing it. Who knows…? 😉

Or maybe the conversation was great, wonderful ideas exchanged, but you notice it has no life, no juice. No one is triggered, nothing ‘happens’.

And not also buy that quad-bike cause everyone has one and you do want to go quadding. Check, first.

Taken from an online discussion in the Human Design Reflector group on Facebook

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SunBlog 60.1

Weirdos in the mail:

Weirdo: Hello Sjef, Do you have MMAI software that you can run a Solar Return chart for me?
Hope you see this. Best

Me: You offer them yourself, but ask me? [his own professional analyst website link]
thinking to myself: ‘I actually feel weirded out by (t)his request, how to get rid of this guy?’

Weirdo: I don’t have the software at hand to calculate the chart itself.
Do you know my request was removed?
oh no it’s there – paranoid 5 here.
So no, I am no tasking for a reading. I am asking for the chart.
Can you run one for me on MMAI?

Me: Don’t want to. Not in my network of friends.

Weirdo: Accepted – very generous of you – NOT

Me: Ah yes, here it comes.

Weirdo: Sjef shut the fuck up


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MoonBlog 45.2

So, another Human Design Teacher described FaceBook as a whole, and HD groups in particular as the not-self world to me the other day. This got me to contemplate my role (t)here, again.

Because I realize these groups are devoid of true HD information, of what it is, and means, to live your design, properly. And yes even if your daily life looks different than mine, or yours, and yours too, the construct of it does not change, Strategy and Authority is not different in the framework of it. How openness works is not different. So I do my best to reply whenever I see or think something is off, when it is either diluting HD or if it is the complete opposite of what HD is, and yes, to me, this includes any kind of ritual, or using anything external for temporary relief, and any and all homogenization.

The comments I get in private and some of the likes from people who are experimenting for a while with HD is helpful. The comments from those that (usually) have not, is incredible. Hurtful even as they gang up, and pound and pound about the tone, about the ‘spirit’ of it, about who I supposedly am as a person, how offended they themselves are by my words about the content they have posted, about -what- they have said. Calling names, shouting and cursing in private messages, giving all kinds of moral pressures of their own frustration and anger, of which I am indeed the trigger but not the cause.

It is not my fault you never learned to communicate, never had any one say: “No, what you just said is untrue in my world and here is why”. And then is unable to deal with that and just gets into a fit and rage. And get all personal about you instead. And then 3 or 5 or 7 others join in with the same bullshit, convinced as they are, feeling empowered by the same stupidity, by the same beliefs.

And not once considering how this holding on to these old beliefs is the reason for their own suffering, for their own anger, for their failed outlook on life. This new age belief of make-ability of needing to be love, of needing to meet love only, for life to succeed, to feel better. And here are tools to feel better. not -be- better, no, -feel- it, perceive it, live in the illusion of feeling better. When year after year even being in groups as these, the suffering continues, and oozes out in the reactions, to people like me. To and about Human Design.
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SunBlog 57.1

Weirdos in the mail:

Weirdo: Sjef i have to say, i concur with [whomever], because i get contracted from reading your comments to others sometimes… Most of the time i resonate with the Content of your comments, or just find it a valid opinion, but not it’s spirit, and it feels that you write angrily, or without compassionate presence… I hope we can stay friends on FB after me writing this, as i feel we share a path, in a wide sense. I’m going to approach [.], and ask [.] to rejoin to group… presuming [.] is the one that left, and didn’t get throne out

Me: bullshit drama, do your thing, I do mine. You also talk not about the content of which I’m passionate about, but about the circumstances, as if you contracting is ANY indication of what I say is right or wrong. Don’t bother me with your moral nonsense, come on. The notion, the idea alone [.] was thrown out is so incredible, what the fuck even…? Did everyone lose their minds?

Weirdo: OK ….

Me: Yeah, consider for a moment what you want from me, by writing

Weirdo: If i want anything at all, it is from me… not from you… And i’m done.
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SunBlog 47.6

Weirdos in the mail:

Weirdo: Dear Mr. Pretends-To-Be-Certain, Do people also often tell you that you’re an asshole that easily gets stuck in your own very narrow and rigid way of seeing? Your childish need to be an authority and put others down? That you’re terrible at looking in the mirror of your own hypocrisy and judgments? I’m not into passive aggressively making wall posts intended for individuals, so I though I should offer you the honor of direct contact.

Me: No
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SunBlog 12.4

Weirdos in the mail

Weirdo: “I swear to God,if that HD page gets closed because of your fucking stupid comments, I am personally going to fuck you up, Watch me if you don’t believe me. YOu are a fucking rude asshole, and you need to get the fuck out of the HD community, and find your own group to lead, since you think you fucking know it all. NO one wants to hear your bullshit except Alla, so you and her can go away and let the rest of us learn You rotten piece of worthless shit. Go die somewhere else, and rot someplace else away from the HD community.”

And as an encore: “please do us all a favor and remove yourself from the PHS food and environment page so we can all feel free to say what we need and learn at our own pace.!!!!!!!!!”
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