reverse reasoning

MoonBlog 42.4

I’m so sorry, I don’t know why I did that

Oh, I’m still bleeding
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how you must hate me
because I did not understand
and I made that comment
when you told me this story
and then the other day
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of me
of you
I am so scared
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I am so bad
I am rotten to my core
of course you don’t like me
I know I should have expected this
I feel horrible about myself
I feel horrible
I don’t like it when I deserved it
did I deserve this?
am I bad?
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is it because you have reason to not like me?
is it because you don’t like me?
is it because of something else?
is it because of that?
is it?
when I looked at you funny
what happened the other day?
is it because of what happened?
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are you evil?
did I do something wrong?
why did -you- prick -me-?
why did you prick me?
don’t you love me?
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you scare me
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when you prick me?
what am I to think of me?
what am I to think of our relationship?
what am I to think of you?
what am I to think of this?
I don’t like that -you- pricked -me-
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I dont like being pricked
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auw that hurt
*prick*

the reversed reasoning of the not-self mind
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