Weirdos in the mail
weirdo: “Removing my ability to comment or discuss my take on being a reflector highlighted to me the health of your group so I’ve kindly left. I wish you all healing xxx”
me: “I have done no such thing
I’m not the admin/mod there
but the about rules of that group are quite clear
there are no takes, only experiences. The rest is just mind fodder”
weirdo: “Mine was all experience x”
me: “Wishing healing is pretending something is wrong with those other people, making you a moralistic fascist
mirror mirror on the wall”
A new experiment (and I hate it already) 🙂
Most people know I live a ‘one thing lead to another’ kinda life. Soup of the day for the Reflector, restaurant analogy, yes? And some things that happen this way are absolutely amazing (positive) and some things are absolutely amazing (negative) 😉
Now my PHS is Color 2 (Taste) and Tone 1 (Smell) making my Taste Open, those are splenic binaries. Through my PHS I have access to a discerning spleen. I’m a natural nose breather and closing my sampling is mouth breathing. And I have Gate 20, twice, one of them my Design Moon, and I call my not-self an emotional manifesting reflector, so there is a lot of immediacy (and a few other Gates allowing me to jump into hyperspace and the opening of the heavens) and all that and more.
I do a lot of tinkering, nerding, melancholic muse driven mind puzzles with musical instruments gear (guitar pedal sequence setup and wiring, amp combinations, tube rolling) and motorbike tweaking (gear ratios, air filters, carb and exhaust tweaking) and recently also some more electronics as in guitar pedal making and now a vacuum tube tester, and so on.
So a lot is bought and sold all the time, all, the, time. Including lots of tools and machinery to do all those things. Which I enjoy a lot. A lot of research goes into it, and I do quite well in finding just the right thing, over time, reading all the reviews and having gained more knowledge and hands on experience of some of the procedures and techniques over the years.
Right now I’m diving into model making, gluing shaped pieces of plastic together and then painting them. Brushing these paints on, looks hideous. So I need an airbrush set-up… (and learn how to use it)
The new experiment is, wait, comma, pause, one lunar cycle before buying anything, -anything-. Everything.
I already don’t like this… 😉
in my perception, there is no snow
in my presence, in my body
there is no weather
there is snow
and the streets are slippery
walking is difficult
becoming bitter cold
at night, outside
there is no weather
not even windstil
“Are you a Reflector and you want to take your deconditioning seriously, then complete isolation for a month is the best thing you can do for yourself.”
This ends up in a proof (undefined heart/ego) to yourself to do this drama, this does -not- apply to all Reflectors and is certainly not the way to take ‘living your design seriously’.
Yes, this was done by one person and another, and a few more Reflectors, but subsequently adopted as a homogeneous method by many including other Reflectors and Professionals and even Reflector Professionals.
Much that is written about the Reflector can be traced back to the desire to be able to interpret them, and preferably by something they should or should not have -to do-, see MoonBlog 58.4 Focussing.
There are Reflectors who blame themselves for not having done this yet, which is a strange development.
Let yourself be guided by your Strategy and Inner Authority, and not by a good sounding story from anyone else.
If (big if) Strategy and Authority leads you to a month of isolation: great. If not: great.
See for example the discussions about this online on facebook:
https://www.facebook.com/groups/38840257689/permalink/10151607242157690/ or, if this is offline click here
reflector sampling, or… not-self? 😉
I once bought a Digital Multi Meter. Hadn’t had one in a while and building guitar pedals, working on motorbikes and what not, they come in handy. So I buy a new one from a so-so brand for about 40 bucks I think. Conrad’s own Voltcraft VC175.
At one point it stops working, all I get are four dashes – – – – and not 0.035volts for instance.
So I try to find another one to replace it, second hand this time, and preferably a brand. I find one that looks a bit crummy but is super easy to use and has all the functions that I think I need and it’s a Fluke, 113 model. Stil twice the price of the other one new, but hey, its a Fluke.
Once home I clean the outside up a little with water and soap and use it, and it’s great. Until I need to do some tests and I get weird results. I even end up sending the pcb elsewhere for testing and finding out what is wrong. Turns out, all the tests run fine, my meter is off ! So seemingly fully functioning, but wrong values.
So I decide to scour the interwebs for advice for another one. Cause I’m not that enthusiastic about getting a ‘better’ 200 bucks Fluke this time, even if I love my gadgets and I like well known stuff, but let’s see what the experts have to say. There I find there are kinda 2 camps, the cheapos and the semi-professionals. The cheapos advice the Aneng AN8008 or AN8009 for about 20 bucks, new, incl shipping from China and the semi-professionals advice the Brymen BM235 which costs about 95 bucks brand new, excl shipping.
I realize one meter is no meter, you need to be able to check yours if anything is off. So I decide to buy them both, it’s only 20 bucks extra and the cheaper one is quite liked too, so why not? I see a funny GM328A meter gadget for 3 pin diodes and whatnot for 15 bucks and get that one too.
Realising also, that my electronic work and interest is growing and that maybe it is time for an oscilloscope too. Go into the deep end of measuring and the semi-professionals kinda agree on the Rigol DS1054Z as a great beginners scope, so that one is in the back of my mind/on the wannahave list. Meanwhile I also read up on calibrating Digital Multi Meters and find the ‘DMM Check Plus‘ which comes with a proper calibration report so you can always verify your meters and their measured results, or compare to each other how precise they are, mmm yum, I like that even better ! 🙂
Slowly slowly the meters arrive, and while I’m making a post about the different meters, I see a picture of the inside of the Voltcraft VC175
And I notice 2 fuses… so I open it up and with the new Brymen BM235 I check the fuses, and the 10A 5600V one is working, but the 0.5A 600V is broken. Would it.. could it be?
I order a few spare fuses and once they arrive I replace the broken one and voilà ! No more dashes and reading normal values….
So now having 4 Digital Multi Meters, of which 3 are working fine (fluke is still flakey), one gadgety one, an oscilloscope and a calibrated meter checker/tester, when all I needed was to replace one fuse? Was it?
Happy sampling ! 🙂
one day, one wakes up, to the inevitable
that one has been avoiding so long
or afraid of
tried to soften the blow
and there you sit
in your knickers
Het nieuwe jaar wordt jaarlijks ingeluid volgens de Gregoriaanse kalender om middernacht, als we van de 31e december overgaan op de 1e van januari. Weliswaar is dit het einde van de kalender, maar niet het einde van de jaarcyclus van de zon.
Het Human Design Systeem volgt de cyclus van de zon, een kosmisch patroon. De zon begint een nieuwe cyclus op het moment dat hij zijn intrede maakt in poort 41. Poort 41 is een startcodon, het enige startcodon.
Dit jaar treedt de zon poort 41 binnen op 21 januari 2021 om 20:49:33 uur (lokale tijd Den Haag). Op dat moment begint de nieuwe cyclus, het nieuwe jaar. Poort 41, gelegen in het wortelcentrum, maakt onderdeel uit van de stroom van gevoel. Het levert de brandstof van verlangen, de honger om nieuwe ervaringen op te doen zonder enig doel of bijbedoeling. Zonder doel blijkt ook uit de naam van het incarnatiekruis waartoe poort 41 behoort, namelijk het Incarnatiekruis van het Onverwachte.
Een nieuwe ervaring aangaan is abstract, je weet niet wat er gaat gebeuren. Het is achteraf, na de ervaring te hebben meegemaakt, dat je erop kunt terugkijken en er een gevoel aan toekent, bv het jaar 2020 voelde zus of zo voor mij. Dat gevoel wordt opgeslagen in ons geheugen.
Bij de cyclus van de zon schijnt zijn licht bij binnenkomst altijd eerst op de 1e lijn van de poort. Elke poort of hexagram heeft 6 lijnen, waarbij elke lijn een specifieke trilling bezit. De 1e lijn van poort 41, heet redelijkheid, de passende vertegenwoordiging van verantwoordelijkheid.
Laten we in redelijkheid kijken naar wat het programma ons brengt in 2021.
Weirdos in the mail
weirdo: “Dear Sjef
I just happened to come across this post of yours with the following para:
“The other day (August 21st 2020), Earth was in Gate 30 line 5, which I do not have in my chart, nor do I have Gate 41, but I’ve never seriously felt more depressed and suicidal than ever before, when for instance I was in much more dire situations/outer circumstances. No I was just sitting there on my bed, watching tv, a comedy even, and I became deeply depressed and suicidal. This Gate 30 has always been a huge trigger for me. Nothing cosmic or bath-like for me, unless it was to drown myself in, to die.” [from MoonBlog 34.5 annihilation]
My feedback to you about the email exchanges around that date, specifically, 22. August, is that you may like to think twice about writing to a tutee/or someone you guide, when you yourself are in a difficult place.
Your comments depressed me about my life: ie what I had considered to be its culmination and its meaning, may actually have been completely wrong. – I fell into depression.
Fortunately, no lasting damage has been done.
I have recovered.
Retrospectively, I think your remarks were insensitive.
There is no need to answer this email.”
me: You’re full of shit since -you- did not even start emailing until august 28th
and I was completely fine the next morning of the 22nd, since it was only a Transit. I was not depressed or suicidal, I was under the impression I was, through an external influence. That is the big joke with Transits, they come, they go, and the big trick with Reflectors is, they can walk out unscathed.
Being aware/awake is not a picnic, don’t blame others for your own experiences, if you seek happiness and fluffy bunnies, go elsewhere. If you think I was being insensitive; impossible since we were not even writing each other. It never happened. Dream on.
Don’t email ever again, I have no appetite for any of these kind of false projections and accusations.
Update/add-on (of course they email again):
weirdo: “You were right: I got the dates wrong. I apologise without reservation.”
me: It’s not even about the dates. It is the hubris and arrogance and then the aggression, that anyone else is responsible for your experiences of your own life. The ridiculous notion that someone else did anything to you and you are a victim, of me no less. Shooting the messenger.
Given that such a reaction to the Human Design information is a great signpost that all is not lost, that you are actually human and face the music of your not-self. That is supposed to be depressing, it is supposed to be horrible to realize with real eyes. Unless you’re already dead inside.
I never forget, but I do forgive, through money. Send 400 euros into my account as a proper token of excuses and repenting. That’ll get you off my blacklist. Read more
Part 4. RS232 interface construction
Part 4. RS232 interface testing
Part 5. micro controller construction
Part 5. micro controller testing
Part 5. micro controller calibration
follow the whole build here: µTracer 3+ build
“The (un)bearable lightness of being…”
“2 days of no transit definition. All 9 centres white. A rare opportunity for Reflectors to savour the complete absence of any kind of pressure from without and within. Difficult to find the right words to express the delight I am experiencing in this limitless space and time, the weightlessness of the body moving around as if floating. No definition, no structure, no mind interfering in this experience of “the (un)bearable lightness of just being there – in wonder…”
Reflectors around the globe – watch out for those days and find a way to be by yourself in those rare moments… you might be up for a surprise!”
and: “It happened again today… yes – it’s difficult to describe in words Isabel Moreira. I imagine that’s why some people use drugs to have that kind of experience. Maybe later on something pops up to share more with my Reflector kin… For now I am just savouring this cosmic bath… in silence… 😶” – Nisarg B. Nikiel
What is this notion of a cosmic bath? Right now the Moon is in Gate 34 forming a temporary conditioned definition with my Gate 20. Besides we’re not here to live the Transits themselves, and even then, our individual experience will always be different, regardless of what the resulting chart looks like. The chart is not the life (!)
The other day (August 21st 2020), Earth was in Gate 30 line 5, which I do not have in my chart, nor do I have Gate 41, but I’ve never seriously felt more depressed and suicidal than ever before, when for instance I was in much more dire situations/outer circumstances. No I was just sitting there on my bed, watching tv, a comedy even, and I became deeply depressed and suicidal. This Gate 30 has always been a huge trigger for me. Nothing cosmic or bath-like for me, unless it was to drown myself in, to die.
There are no fairy tales in Human Design and certainly no homogenization, so when there are no channels formed by the Transits, it does not have to mean anything at all, and most certainly not for all Reflectors, no made up surprises, nothing the same for anyone/everyone else. Even when ‘no definition’ shows up. Nothing is fixed, not positive not negative.
about the transits and conditioning – they are not you. They are an experience that is happening for you to observe, not to identify nor act upon. It can be an amplified experience, so that you begin to see it, and how it programs the mind to initiate actions based upon False Evidence Appearing Real – the mind’s survival defense mechanisms.
It is not about ignoring the mind, either. It is about noticing the stories that the mind makes up and tries to convince you that they are real. Those stories are fingers pointing towards what you are here to be wise about, those energies passing through your open gates, channels and centers.” – Leela Swann-Herbert
“You’re not going to find your answer in this journey. You’re going to find stimulation. The answer is within yourself. It cannot be anyplace else. It is about whether it is your serendipity, not choice, but whether it is your serendipity to surrender, and to surrender to your vehicle.
Whatever Human Design is in the end, it is here to transform the form principle. It is here to teach us an extraordinary essential lesson that the body is the life. If you do not allow this body to operate in the way that it was intended to operate you screw up your life; boom. It’s not about your head trip. It’s not about what your mind thinks, not about all the bullshit you go through, all the machinations, this and that, this and that. This is the madness of the world.
The beauty of the form principle is that when you relax into surrender, into the integrity of your form you will see that it delivers, it gives you your life.” -Ra Uru Hu