Sometimes one learns a technique, and applies it occasionally or perhaps everywhere, and might even become extremely good in the application. But the technique is not you, it is not who you are. The ritual of exercising the technique, however well performed, is not who you are. Nor is being a bad performer of it, who you are.
Drop the identification with exercising any ritual or technique, and find who is doing it.
Self-devotion
I feel and realise now, that I wanted human design, then integral human design, and now the deep dive to be a permanent change in my life.
From conditioned, mundaine, sheeplike, shadow patterned and patented monotony and stupidity, left-brain dictations to a freed life, of eternal bliss, profound love, monetairy indifference, fullfilling dreams and wishes, and loads of joy.
But I also realise now that it is all wishfull -thinking-
And yes, my body does feel different, I feel my body differently. My mind operates the same but is not so much in control anymore as it has taken a more observing stance.
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