in my perception, there is no snow
in my presence, in my body
inside
there is no weather
inside
outside
there is snow
and the streets are slippery
walking is difficult
becoming bitter cold
at night, outside
inside
there is no weather
not even windstil
inside
there is
only absence
of weather
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There’s nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you.
We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us.
It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.” — Return to Love by Marianne Williamson
Little boy, little boy
has lost a lot of Blood
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I’m so sorry, I don’t know why I did that
Oh, I’m still bleeding
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how you must hate me
because I did not understand
and I made that comment
when you told me this story
and then the other day
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of me
of you
I am so scared
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I am so bad
I am rotten to my core
of course you don’t like me
I know I should have expected this
I feel horrible about myself
I feel horrible
I don’t like it when I deserved it
did I deserve this?
am I bad?
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is it because you have reason to not like me?
is it because you don’t like me?
is it because of something else?
is it because of that?
is it?
when I looked at you funny
what happened the other day?
is it because of what happened?
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are you evil?
did I do something wrong?
why did -you- prick -me-?
why did you prick me?
don’t you love me?
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you scare me
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when you prick me?
what am I to think of me?
what am I to think of our relationship?
what am I to think of you?
what am I to think of this?
I don’t like that -you- pricked -me-
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I dont like being pricked
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auw that hurt
*prick*
“the reversed reasoning of the not-self mind”
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“Help, is there a Reflector in the room?”
hurry hurry,
hurry,
rush,
hurry,
hurry,
hurry to the store,
hurry back from the store,
hurry to make dinner,
hurry to eat dinner,
hurry from the table,
hurry to the tv,
hurry to sleep,
hurry to wake up,
hurry to the toilet,
hurry off the toilet,
hurry to shower,
ok,
then not so much hurry to get out from under there.
So is showering the new solution, the solution we’ve overlooked for people with the Open Undefined Root?
it’s not what your think, it’s what you are
it’s not what you do, it’s how you are
it’s not what you see, it’s who is seeing
it’s not how you sleep, it’s what you dream
it’s not what you touch, it’s what you feel
it’s not about you, it’s you
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I’m here to have fun,
preferably with you
so why don’t you tell me, yourself or all of us, something fun(ny)
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and we struggle and we plow
we don’t allow ourselves to heal
we don’t believe we have worth
so we continue to struggle and to plow
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Re-conditioning is all the rage
when de-conditioning turns out to be
just a ph(r)ase
a trick of sorts
sold illusoir.
Engorgés sans réserve
holding on to what is not
floating driftwood
as they rot
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-Will she come in high heels or sneakers,
in a skirt or in jeans?
-Will she come in lace or in cotton,
will she be grumpy or sweet?
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Fullfilment
When will I stop, when will it be enough?
seeking, yearning, wanting
but what
really?
Is it my head?
Is it my body?
Is it really me?
“just relax. Have another drink, few more pretzels,”
I stopped chasing my tail for a bit now, but when will the chase stop itself…?
*were you hare when I was fox”
Or is this why me is me.
If so, than I only need some new
N R J
aaaaah *plop*
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