I feel and realise now, that I wanted human design, then integral human design, and now the deep dive to be a permanent change in my life.
From conditioned, mundaine, sheeplike, shadow patterned and patented monotony and stupidity, left-brain dictations to a freed life, of eternal bliss, profound love, monetairy indifference, fullfilling dreams and wishes, and loads of joy.
But I also realise now that it is all wishfull -thinking-
And yes, my body does feel different, I feel my body differently. My mind operates the same but is not so much in control anymore as it has taken a more observing stance.