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it is absolutely impossible

“There are 60 million mothers of Reflectors on the planet, approximately, if they’re alive. That is, they’re 1% of our 6 billion population so there are about 60 million Reflector mothers that show up every once in a while. It’s not like they don’t exist. They do.

I want you to understand disappointment. The Projector arrives and it’s really annoyed. It wasn’t invited. It doesn’t know what this is all about. The Reflector arrives looking forward to the whole thing, only to be deeply disappointed from the very beginning. And it has to do with the nature of their aura. I don’t know how many of you were able to listen to my Daily View special on auras. If not, the transcribed version of that is available on the website.

The thing to recognize about Reflector auras is that their auras are made of Teflon. Reflectors have Teflon auras. And basically what that means is that they shimmy with you, but they don’t let you in. Everybody looks at a Reflector chart and they say oh, they’re so vulnerable and they’re so open. But that’s simply because you have the counterpoint.

It is impossible, if you have definition, it is absolutely impossible, I don’t care if you’re a single definition, mental Projector, it is absolutely impossible to understand what it is to be a Reflector. It is a totally different aura.

If you could see the aura of a Projector, it is like a fist breaking into a beanbag. This is a Projector’s aura. It goes whack like that, which is why Generators don’t like them, because the Generator aura is this kind of fuzzy warm swallow you. And it’s really kind of enveloping. And the Projector does whack.

So when you’re dealing with a reflector, you’re dealing with this Teflon aura. Here you are, momma Generator (swoosh sound). And you’ve got this baby that goes (sound), and the mother is already disappointed. “I don’t seem to have contact with my child.” It’s like: “We don’t really seem to connect.” And the child is going (swoosh sound).

This child doesn’t care that it has a mother. The Manifestors and Generators and Projectors, everything is dependent on the mother; everything. The mother ally is going to change their life. The Reflector—swoosh. It doesn’t make a difference who it is because they’re not interested in people. They didn’t come to this planet to look at other people. They came to look at the sky.

If you have a Reflector baby, you wrap it up really warm—two weeks old—you take it outside at night with a full moon like you’re baptizing a werewolf. Then it’s going to know why it’s on the planet. And it’s one of the most magical things to understand about Reflectors.

It’s what I teach them in terms of awakening. I teach them to understand the program. They’re not here to understand people. They’re not here to understand themselves. They don’t care. They don’t. Oh we teach them to care, which isn’t necessarily good for them. We condition them to all these other things. But they still have this Teflon aura. They’re never really going to connect with you, because that’s not what they’re here for.

We have two ways in which we are conditioned. We have the auras that are there between life forms. And then we have the neutrino ocean and its feed. The Reflector is the only type that is designed to ward off that human quality, diminish it, and reduce it in value. It’s not that it’s gone; but to reduce it in its value and power, and in doing so they become more receptive and more attuned to the program. And that’s what they’re here for.

So, the parent that has a Reflector child, it doesn’t matter what they do. It doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter what they are. It doesn’t matter what their configuration is. It doesn’t matter what the partnership is. The only thing that matters is that we hope that the child is well fed, that it’s got a decent environment.

But you really have to understand this about the Reflector; they’re very different. And this introduction to sky, we don’t do that anymore. It’s one of the first things I did when my son was born the countryside here on the north end of the island, in an old finca in the countryside, when he was about two weeks old. He’s not a Reflector. It’s just that I wanted him to see the sky. I took him outside. He’s lying there staring up at these incredible lights.

You can’t imagine how important that is for the Reflector baby, to have contact with this vastness. You give them this image of vastness; you take away all their disappointment. You take it all away. If you only show them these silly human beings that are all around them, they will be disappointed all of their lives, all of their lives.

It’s one of the deepest things that I can teach Reflectors. Forget about the importance of people; forget about all that. Forget about it. Don’t study people’s charts. Watch the program. That’s your job. That’s why you’re here. That’s what you’re here for.” -Ra Uru Hu

there is a huge section of the population that do not have their inner authority unless somebody else points it out to them

“Projectors have projected authority. Projected authority is deeply complex. You can see more projected authority. For example, somebody with the spleen to the throat, the channel of Talent has splenic projected authority. But it only works if it is recognized – it doesn’t work any other way. Unless it is recognized, the talent doesn’t come out. These are people that have to be discovered by others. “Oh, you could be so talented.” “Really, me – you think?” “Yes, you could be so talented.” “Okay, I’ll try that.”

Projected splenic authority has to be recognized. If s not about saying, “I’ve got the talent, and I’m going out there and show the world.” He can’t say that. Somebody has to say that to him. He has to be recognized. The moment that you recognize his gift, then his authority can come out.

The spleen to the root – it is all projected. There is no sacral, there’s no throat. You go into a room and your awareness, your gut feeling, says to you, “I have to get out of here.” Now you are not going to act on that, because you are a projector. You have to wait until somebody recognizes that you’re uncomfortable and comes up and says, “Are you comfortable?” “No, I’m leaving.”

When it is recognized, then the authority comes out, but only when it is recognized. This is the whole thing about projectors, their authority is there, but it is only there when it is recognized, and recognized specifically. This is not about asking them any question. They are not generators. It is specific and directed to their nature.

The spleen to the self with the10/57, is somebody who has the design of survival, but only when somebody recognizes it as her authority. Only when somebody comes to her and says, “Can you tell me what to do?” or “I know that you know how to help me,” – whatever the case may be. “You find the form for me.” She has to be recognized, then the authority comes out. Just like somebody with a defined ego that is a projected ego. There is no power to that ego until somebody recognizes it. “You have the power, go do it.” Then he can. He doesn’t know until you point at it. When you point at it then he can grab and go.

The spleen to the ego in the channel of Surrender, the transmission of the 26/44, is the creative channel of the tribe. It is the capacity to be able to get the message out to the tribe, to get your product out to them, to get an image out to them, to be able to inform them about what is available for them within the tribe. Now if somebody has that and doesn’t get recognition for her talent, it will never come out.

Somebody has to say to her, “Hey, look. You’re really good. I know you can really get this stuff out there, and it will really work. I have faith in you. You go do that.” Then she can. They are the kind of people that the moment somebody recognizes the quality of their work, they get a halo about this big. They walk around saying, “Yeah, I’m recognized.” They have no authority until they are recognized. The more recognition that they get after that, the more authority they have, because they are the ones that really can transmit to the tribe, but it has to be recognized.

The spleen to the ego, again undefined solar plexus, undefined sacral, and of course that is always going to be the rule there. You can’t have any kind of projected splenic authority if there is a sacral or a solar plexus, other than the specific case in which the spleen is directly connected to the sacral.

Everything about projected authority, says to us that there is a huge section of the population that do not have their inner authority unless somebody else points it out to them. Recognize how important we are to each other. The generator waiting for the person to ask; the projector waiting for the person to recognize them – they have a design to wait. That means that there is that responsibility on the other side to know that these types exist.” – Ra Uru Hu

It is not philosophical because it is not spiritual…

“…Surrender is mechanical. Its mechanical you are surrendering to the mechanism of what life is itself…

I am so tired of philosophical descriptions of surrender.

The service is look you can get this for free. You come to my site ( and get it for free. You can get it for free you can get your chart you can get your strategy, you can get your type, you can get your profile, you can get everything you need, you don’t have to spend a goddamn penny, go away and be yourself. And if it really turns you on, yeah we will sell you all kinds of stuff. We will teach you all kinds of stuff, we will read your chart this way that way, upside down, inside out, we will do whatever you like, but be yourself first and be yourself from nothing. That’s our service.

This is not a black art, this is not a hidden art, this is not something that is kept in the closet, this is not something that is here for the elite. It is not, this is what I like the least about this whole process of starting new knowledge is that you end up with elite groups who have the money who have the opportunity, who have the time. This is for everyone and it is for everyone at the simplest level.

Knowledge is not power. It’s just information. It doesn’t do anything. The only way this person is ever going to live out their life properly is if they live out their strategy. And if they live out their strategy then all those components that are in them operate correctly. Just your body operates correctly without you being involved running it.” -Ra Uru Hu

Human Design Gate 47 Realising Oppression

“The 47th game oppression in the ajna center pointed upwards to the head center, to its harmonic gate the 64 before completion, forming the channel of abstraction and design of mental activity and clarity.

Now the 47th gate is the gate of realizing, realizing, but it is a gate that is placed under tremendous pressure.

The head center, the center above the center that it is pointed at, is pressure center and so the 47th gate has the pressure on it to try to make sense of the abstract.

Now what that means literally, is to try to make sense of whatever stored memory is available and it is this stored memory that becomes the source of the pressure on the 47.

Unlike the logical process that deals with patterns that can be worked with, that the 47th gate, the abstract process is always trying to make sense out of experiential snippets, bits and pieces of experiential memory and the 47th gate oppression is described as a restrictive and adverse state as a result of internal weakness or external strength or both.

Now think about that, because that’s, that’s quite difficult to grasp, that is this is a restrictive and adverse state.

This process of trying to make sense out of things is restrictive and it is a result of internal weakness or external strength or both.

Now what is this adverse state?

The whole thing about the process of trying to make sense out of things is that you never truly get to a resolution.

In many ways trying to make sense out of something is trying to come to a point of clarity emotionally and the abstract process and the emotional process are deeply connected to each other.

Everything about the process of making sense out of things, is very similar to the process of coming to clarity, that is the common denominator is time, time.

If one has the 47th gate and it is part of a definition, in other words that the head and ajna center are going to be defined, then there is a consistent process at work.

But it’s very very difficult if one just simply has the 47th gate and it’s in an undefined ajna center, you know, then it’s very difficult because you don’t have the opportunity to consistently, over time, try to make sense out of the same thing from different experiential memories.

Whenever you look at the first line you look at the foundation of a hexagram, the first line of the 47 is taking stock.

It says; the ability in times of hardship, there’s already a presumption of the difficulty of what it is to try to make sense out of things, the hardship to concentrating on eradicating negative factors that led to the oppression realizing that negative thoughts have to be eradicated.

Now one of the most important things for the abstract mind is to discover positiveness, it’s very important for the abstract mind.

The tendency of the abstract mind is to be littered with negative thoughts without clarity, without certainty, without absolute fact.

The process of realization is very very difficult and of course because there are so many different ways that one can interpret experience, that it’s full of difficulties and it’s full of negative thoughts.

The detriment is the delusion of seeing oppression, is exclusively external and this is about the sense that the world is against you.

So you can see right away, that if you’re carrying the 47th gate and that you are not self, which means that your mind is your inner authority, then your inner authority is going to be deeply driven by its negative thoughts and it’s going to be deeply driven by the sense that one is fighting against everything and everyone and obviously that is something that can be very difficult.

The great value of the 47th gate is that because life is for humanity an experiential process, we need its capacity to try to realize and make sense out of experience, but as outer authority, not as inner authority.

As inner authority making sense becomes an enormous burden and it misdirects the life.” – Ra Uru Hu

‘Cause we need a little, controversy

to all moralists, liars and other 5 centered idiots, Sjef says: “of the 12 women into HD that had sex with me, averaging not even one HD sex partner per year of being into HD

about 4 have I taught any HD before the sex, with well over 200 that is averaging less than 1 in 50

the other 8 I either never taught or it was after the sex.”

If you read some of my writings and sharing and happen to experience a drive to –not– connect, great. If you do experience a drive to connect, great, you are hereby invited, asked, informed and initiated to do so through the contact page.
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The one that breaks the rule, is normally closer to the truth.


This is the reflector. There’s only 1% of them. They’re not here to care about impact, they’re not here to respond to life or have an enveloping aura, they’re not here to be focused on anyone in particular. They’re here to understand the totality, because they’re the only ones who are not fixed on anything. They have a Teflon aura, you know, they sample, they sample. The theme of the reflector is disappointment, because when they start off as a child, you know everything new is different and then, you know, after a certain time you just start getting repetitions of everything. Somebody like your father or somebody like your mother, somebody like your uncle, somebody like your brother, somebody… There’s no surprise anymore. People are just normal. Everybody’s normal, you know, and because this type has a Teflon aura, you know, they do not necessarily go very deep with anyone. They do not necessarily come very close to anyone and of course if you don’t come close, you don’t start feeling the differences. So this is what this is all about for this type. They’re here to see who is different. Because you see, the one that is different, the one that breaks the rule, is normally closer to the truth.
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One of the biggest challenges with HD

Alone is not really a strongest enough word for where this all leads. I Am alone, totally alone in all of this. We all are. – John Martin

One of the biggest challenges with HD – or any real tool for awareness – is the inherent need to connect with others. To belong or be part of whatever, this may be a necessary part for some? And yes, I understand sitting around talking about it is much more popular. However, it is the exact wrong direction; it immediately strips you of your power and individuality, and it stops your progress before you even begin.

This is one of the most daunting parts of the real journey. When You, yourself, become aware of just how alone you are in all of this, you will understand why I say this a Warriors art, and not for mass consumption.

It confronts what most humans consider acceptable; you are, in fact, turning away from what most if not all things humans could or would want. You’re putting down childish pursuits, and getting real and honest with yourself.

This simply means you are starting to think and or see for yourself. You are no longer dependent on anyone other than yourself. This is what it means to be your own authority. To defer to no one about anything ever again. Not even me, not Ra, not god, or your momma. Yes, it’s brutal on the poor mind that thinks it needs others to feel safe.

When you SEE this for yourself; That You are not just up against your own mind but every mind on the planet, this shit gets real, REAL quick! The last thing you will need or want is some dumbass’s input about same!

This is the critical step, the only step that matters, the one where you begin the long journey home back to YOURSELF, asking no one, and it must be done by yourself and for yourself; this journey is yours and yours alone.

Yes, I can be a good ally in your process, but I can’t climb your mountain.
We are here.

Let’s begin at the beginning.

Dharmen Swann-Herbert 1/3 Reflector, RAX of the Unexpected

“Reflectors are the only beings born with no definition, unlike everybody else. We have activations. What that means is that our auras are different, but not entirely so. Manifestors’ auras are closed and insulating. Generators’ auras are open and enveloping. Projectors’ auras are focused and absorbing. But Reflectors’ auras are sampling, which means these auras open and close, and our openness amplifies that experience. Reflectors will never experience definition, only conditioning, as that is our nature. This is where the Reflector begins life in the open vastness with no definition, and no hope of ever being defined. Always conditioned, always looking to be like everybody else; always seeking to be filled in. Until a Reflector finds their path, we are lost in the sea of conditioning. And here is the cosmic joke, every Reflector is different from every other Reflector, and yet all seeking the same thing– to find themselves.

Reflectors have the greatest ally– the Moon. But here’s another of those jokes — only the Personality Moon can show the Reflector our unique way. We’re open, there is not center energy guide for us, it’s the Moon that shows us our way, and in the only way it can– through our personality. Why, you might ask is this so? It’s really quite simple — our personality is what is conscious to us. When we as a Reflector accept the moon as our teacher, we are on the way to finding our path. Reflectors are the student of experience and experience comes to us amplified.

Conditioning is always amplified so that we can become intimate with experience. Experience reveals how energy gets experienced. Every 28.5 days shows the Reflector what energy feels like, looks like, smells like, tastes like, flows like. Every 28.5 days gives the Reflector a glimpse of what an experience is, and all based on what the Reflector has activated. This is mechanical. Not personal. But the stories are personal. The stories are the Reflectors greatest teacher, because the stories are amplified too.

You begin to see the beauty of design. The mind takes in all the conditioning and turns that conditioning into stories, and the Reflector is here to see all those stories in their openness. Every time the mind is saying something, it is telling you a story about what has happened, what is going to happen, or what may happen – based upon your conditioning. It does not tell stories about what is actually happening; what is actually happening is experienced only through direct observation. When we can see this phenomenon, we become the guides of observation.

This is our role, to see how all of the stories make experience personal; to become aware of how these stories are not our actual life. Our work is to become aware that the mind and its stories are not an actual experience; but what they do is provide us with an example of how experience is seen by the mind. Our life as a Reflector is a moment by moment experience of what comes and goes. This takes place when we sacrifice trying to be like everyone else, we gain the gift of understanding of how energy is experienced.

This is the wisdom the Reflector can bring when they find their path, and when they trust their openness. So for Reflectors, the thing to recognize, that there is no experience you are mechanically designed to hold onto, to have consistently; because experience is your life.”

Dharmen Swann-Herbert –

of selecteer “andere vraag”

Je spreekt nu met Tracy: Hoi! Welkom bij de chat van DHL Parcel. Ik ben Tracy de chatbot. 🙂 Ontvang je een pakket via ons? Of heb je iets verstuurd?

Jij: Ontvanger

Tracy: Dan ben je bij mij aan het goede adres! 😉 Wat kan ik voor je doen?

Jij: melding zegt afgeleverd maar heb niets ontvangen

Tracy: Ik begrijp dat je pakje wel de status “bezorgd” heeft, maar dat het pakket toch niet bezorgd is. Heb ik dat goed begrepen?

Jij: Ja, dat klopt

Tracy: In deze drukke periode zien we vaak dat het pakket een werkdag later alsnog wordt geleverd. Is de melding dat het pakket is bezorgd al meer dan een werkdag geleden gegeven?

Jij: Nee

Tracy: Dan raad ik je aan een werkdag af te wachten. Heb je het pakket een werkdag later nog steeds niet? Dan zoeken we het graag verder voor je uit.

Jij: gekkenhuis

SunBlog 49.4 Platform

Weirdos in the mail:

weirdo: Date: Thu, 10 Feb 2022 15:14:16
From: “m.parlow”
Subject: Awakening HumanDesign 2022 (the Fool says Hello )
To: 32 hd people
Dear Human Design Associates World Wide,

Humans are awakening and they are looking for guidance, a guidance Human Design could provide them with, as it is the Purpose of design!

To start with:

In early 2021 i got invitations from 2 different persons towards Human Design, and the Time was right, i came fascinated and driven for more information.

2021 I also turned 40, met Venus and some other “Gods”, got initiated, experienced inner marriage, still walking my spirit quest that lead me here.

I wanted to write this mail already in December, and since It keeps coming up and I am tired of avoiding truth and confrontation, I decided to follow my inspiration!

Im a non emotional 3/6 projector, with defined and connected Head and Ajna, Splitdefinition, that has the perfect form – now. im very familiar with the terms and ideas of the IGing form my childhood on, I was into Asian philosophy with 15, platon, Aristoteles, Diogenes followed, im deeply into history and I have a pretty good historic overview.

Im an artist mostly, but into shamanism and religions, working with mentally and physically challenged people, into developmental psychology, communication theorys, doing graphic design.. in short .. I was always driven to learn and get into things, like my types design intend to.

Now the knowledge of my design helps me to go even deeper. But a lot of aspects told by design, I grasped first otherwise. That’s why I am so very fond of HD and after I was looking around the web in research, and I COULD NOT BELIVE IT.

Youtube vids of Ra with 40 – 100 likes .. or less .. I really could not believe it .. why was nobody interested in what I consider the most valuable information, I was searching for quite a while, (all my life) to understand the deeper mechanics within.

I had to go through several religions, mystic aspects of schaman and indigenous knowledge and Art, Maya, Celtic, Egypt, Nativ Americans, Celts, Stone Age, Keiyserling, Astrophysics.. u name it .. ..NOW the mechanics are all there in HD .. well almost .. or : if they where!

Luckyly I found a lot of the audio material on “Human Design by Ra Uru HU“ on youtube at first.. back in 2021

– 20++ hours of listening to audio material later .. my inner voice told me to rip it so I could listen to it in the future for sure!

– but I did not listen to myself and now all the material and the account is gone ..

– This gave me the final push to write this mail!
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SunBlog 61.2 Natural Brilliance

Weirdos in the mail

Weirdo: Grand Rising
How are you

me: [undef SP] I dont know !!? but I guess I’m ok?

weirdo: [heart like]

weirdo: Can I consider you for a private reading
cuz I have an important message for you that’s why I I reach out and the message is very helpful for your future

me: Is it ok to share your full (birth) data with me?
Mine are at the bottom here:

me: when you say: “Can I consider you for a private reading?” that means you want a reading from me.
If you say: “Can I interest you in a private reading?” than you are offering me one/solicitating for one.
And since you say you have an important message for me, that would indicate you want to give me one. Correct?

me: Hello?
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Economisch chanteren van meningen is nationale ziekte aan het worden

door Syp Wynia

Welkom in de wereld van de BN’er-perikelen. Het is nagenoeg onmogelijk om als BN’er iemand te zijn zonder van tijd tot tijd ophef te veroorzaken. Maar pas wel op. Zodra de BN’er iets zegt dat met immigratie, islam of identiteitspolitiek van doen heeft kan de ophef zich zomaar tegen hem of haar keren. Niet eens omdat er iemand beledigd of gekwetst zou zijn, maar omdat andere BN’ers in het geweer komen voor kwetsbaren die beledigd zouden kúnnen zijn. Ook als de boodschap de kwetsbaren nog niet heeft bereikt wordt er al preventief ingegrepen. Want heimelijk worden de kwetsbaren ook als licht ontplofbaar gezien.

Het begon bij de plofkip
Het is niet helemaal nieuw, maar het wordt wel een patroon. Het eerste deel van het patroon bestaat uit economische chantage. Een bekend voorbeeld is de ‘plofkip’-campagne van de door de Postcodeloterij gesponsorde actiegroep Wakker Dier. Die ondermijnde jarenlang de reputatie van Nederlandse supermarkten – Albert Heijn voorop – met radio- en tv-reclames met akelige beelden van kippen.

Tot de supermarkten stuk voor stuk voor de bijl gingen en alleen nog maar van duurzame etiketten voorziene kippen verkochten. Je gaat dus met een paar mensen bij elkaar zitten, je haalt wat geld bij elkaar – loterijgeld als het even kan – en je ondermijnt met een reclamecampagne de reputatie van een bedrijf tot dat bedrijf voor de bijl gaat.

Die economische chantage wordt sinds een aantal jaren ook toegepast op media, hun uitgevers en hun adverteerders. Een bekend geval is dat van GeenStijl, dat zijn zelfgekozen slogan ‘Tendentieus, ongefundeerd & nodeloos kwetsend’ nogal eens eer aandoet. Bijna vijf jaar geleden riepen 140 vrouwelijke journalisten en tv-presentatoren de uitgever van GeenStijl op om de handen er van af te trekken. En de adverteerders werd ook opgeroepen daarmee te stoppen.

Dat alles omdat op GeenStijl seksistische taal was uitgeslagen, met name ten koste van een columniste van De Volkskrant. En inderdaad: adverteerders trokken zich – tijdelijk of niet – terug, waarmee de economische basis van de website wankel werd. De nieuwe uitgever, het Belgische Mediahuis, deed GeenStijl even later van de hand.

Vanwege ‘vrouwenvernedering’
De 140 vrouwen wilden GeenStijl een toontje lager laten zingen, omdat er naar hun idee – zo stond het in een Open Brief – systematisch aan ‘vrouwenvernedering en racisme’ werd gedaan. Ze kozen er niet voor om naar de rechter te gaan, wat in een rechtsstaat toch een voor de hand liggende route zou zijn geweest. Ze kozen er voor om zelf voor rechter te spelen. Om zelf een tribunaal op te richten, om het in actueel Nederlands te zeggen.

De hefboom van dit tribunaal was het ondermijnen van de reputatie van de uitgever en de adverteerders. En omdat reputatie alles is, betekent ondermijning van reputatie verlies van waarde, beurswaarde eventueel ook. Dat willen de meeste bedrijven ten koste van alles voorkomen, ook als er niets onwettelijks is gebeurd waar zij ook maar indirect voor verantwoordelijk gehouden kunnen worden.

En toen: Veronica Inside
Twee jaar geleden was er nog zo’n voorbeeld, dat bijna de ondergang leek te gaan worden van het tv-programma Veronica Inside, met de BN’ers Johan Derksen, Wilfred Genee en René van der Gijp. Dat praatprogramma gaat over voetbal, maar ging steeds vaker over andere zaken waar mensen zich druk over maken.

Johan Derksen maakte in dat programma een helemaal niet zo onaardige grap ten koste van de rapper Akwasi, die enkele weken eerder op een podium op de Dam in Amsterdam had gedreigd Zwarte Piet te zijner tijd in het gezicht te trappen. Het land was te klein, niet over het dreigement van Akwasi, maar over de grap van Derksen. Het Nederlands voetbalelftal ging het programma boycotten en een reeks van adverteerders van Veronica Inside werd opgeroepen het programma niet meer te sponsoren. Derksen weigerde te buigen, maar moest wel in zijn eigen programma allerlei gekleurde moralistische praat slikken. Read more

Here’s a simple test.

“If it’s soothing or comforting, if it makes you feel warm and fuzzy; if it’s about getting into pleasant emotional or mental states; if it’s about peace, love, tranquility, silence or bliss; if it’s about a brighter future or a better tomorrow; if it makes you feelgood about yourself or boosts your self-esteem, tells you you’re okay, tells you everything’s just fine the way it is; if it offers to improve, benefit or elevate you, or if it suggests that someone else is better or above you; if it’s about belief or faith or worship; if it raises or alters consciousness; if it combats stress or deepens relaxation, or if it’s therapeutic or healing, or if it promises happiness or relief from unhappiness, if it’s about any of these or similar things, then it’s not about waking up.

Then it’s about living in the dream state, not smashing out of it.

On the other hand, if it feels like you’re being skinned alive, if it feels like a prolonged evisceration, if you feel your identity unraveling, if it twists you up physically and drains your health and derails your life, if you feel love dying inside you, if it seems like death would be better, then it’s probably the process of awakening” – Jed Mckenna

Unlock your mind

Sam: How do you describe, this self illusion? Where are people, apparently, stuck? Cause contracted energy is one interesting way of describing what this is like.

Jim: Well it is revealed in how it falls apart, and this is just a story, it has no, no helpful quality to it at all, to know this.

But when it falls apart, what is revealed is there’s a contracted energy in the body. And the first thing that arises out of that, is a sense of ‘here’.

‘Here’ is then the first thing that seems to be known and it feels very, secure in a way, comforting.
There is something, real.

And out of that ‘here’-ness comes an experiential center, an illusory experiential center; “I am here”. From that arises the entire story, that this appearance is connected, in a real way, and that is called my life.

And part of that need that arises when I have a life, is one of meaning and purpose, and the need to know.